Thursday, May 22, 2008



Freak. The father saw me typing mine and Van's conversation.

We had a Very Serious Talk. I still don't get his Very Serious Problem outlook.

I think I really might be moving to lj and f-locking everything.

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burned the sheets at 23:40

Wednesday, May 21, 2008


decrepit;


I'll say this: I absolutely abhor snubbing.

Watch out, girlie. You're approaching the precipice. One wrong move and you plunge deep into dank darkness, your body smashed against jagged rocks.

One wrong move. Or I can push you.

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burned the sheets at 21:03


black.


This is just - fuck. All the bloody fucking shit I have to deal with.

I really just want to close my eyes and die.

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burned the sheets at 01:07

Tuesday, May 20, 2008


running.


Because I'm just so tired of you making your fucking assumptions.
Because I'm just so tired of you making your unsubtle insinuations.
Because I'm just so tired of you butting your nose in where it doesn't belong.
Because I'm just so tired of having you in my life.

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Fuck.

Can't you just let me live my life on my own? Is it too much to ask for you to believe that I can make my own decisions?

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Just. Let me sort my identity crisis out on my own. I can solve my own shit, thank you very much, and I don't need another goddamned person nosing around my business.

Whether I choose to run or stay and fight, it's really my choice, not yours. You do not control my life and the decisions I make.

Leave me alone. I need some alone time. Or do you not understand the meaning of that?

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I'm just really really really tired of everything. Why wasn't I sent the memo that I'd be plunged into a confusing identity crisis? Maybe I could've prepared better for its arrival then.

Sometimes I just want to crawl into bed, shut my eyes tight, and just see black. And black. And never open my eyes again.

But apparently, even asking to see black is a little out of my league. Seeing as how a bloody migraine bestowed on me flashes of every frickking glaring colour except black.

It's the middle of the night and my room is pitch black. I shut my eyes. And I see bright pink, yellow, green, aqua behind my eyelids, like I'm under a strobe light. I feel my nose throbbing, my eyeballs too. Every minute sound, even the soft hissing of the airconditioner, echoes in my head like a cacophony of screeching crows. My brain feels like it's being compressed, pushed and prodded into a space too small to contain it. I hear the ringing of a bell in my head. My teeth fairly ache with the sheer agony of the intensity up there. I can feel every ridge of my palate, my tongue chooses this time to become ultra-sensitized, and I can feel the sting of every ulcer in my mouth, ulcers I didn't know existed. My mouth feels raw, and I can feel the rake of the devil scraping over my tongue, like I've eaten too many warheads. Except I haven't eaten warheads since at least two months ago, when Joshua dropped the warhead into the coke.

I can hear and feel every nuance of a screw being driven into my skull. The screeching of bone ground to dust. I see a dull silver screw, huger than any I've ever seen, slowly twisting, and my nerves scream along. All I see now are the bursts of pink, yellow, green and aqua, all over again. The pain remains, though.

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That was not a lie. It was last night. The worst bloody headache of my life. I closed my eyes and couldn't find it in myself to be sleepy, to want to sleep. Yet I kept seeing the bursts of horribly colourful lights.

Last night was the singularly worst moment of my life. Though today might give it a run for its money.

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burned the sheets at 15:39

Monday, May 19, 2008


slicing apart those sins.


Because SOME people find in themselves the amazing ability to be utterly shameless.
Because SOME people fail to comprehend the meaning of 'example'.
Because SOME people are just absolutely idiotic like that.

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Okay, I'm sorry I sound so harsh, but really, this is just my honest opinion of what happened yesterday, though it is a second-hand account, courtesy of Brenda.

Both parents were in the wrong. Which makes it kind of tough for me, because I usually like to take a stand. Haha but I guess this just means that I get to deal double dosage, and take jabs at both parties :D

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S'S MUM

She really shouldn't have gone to insult Wee Heng. But I guess all that's going to be in here are alot of 'shouldn't have's, So I'll dispense with that.

Fine, she was a damned beeyatch for going around and insulting kids, of all people, without compunction.

Really. What sort of parent goes around, in a church of all places, and calls a kid a 'gangster'? What sort of freaking adult, let alone parent and Christian, are you being? And let's not mention that the kid is pretty sweet in his own way, if slightly rowdy occasionally.

It merely shows the supreme shallowness of the parent, and instills in the impressionable kid the belief that adults are not to be trusted, that adults will only put you down, that adults don't bother to look past your face and actions to see the real you, that adults are superficial. Which totally rings true for the parent in question, but in general?

It'd be totally sad if the world was full of people like this.

This is where the opinionated adjectives come into play.

If the fricking mother thinks that she's good enough to judge people superficially, then she should have the credentials to go with it. Why then, do I see her daughter always dressed skimpily, face caked with makeup, at the tender age of nine? It's the upbringing, and dare I say it, the genes. Which really does explain the extremity of the girl's selfishness, pettiness, superficiality and vanity.

And no way in hell is she pretty. Passable, but not pretty.

It's not that I'm saying everything's all fine and dandy if she's pretty, but it does mean that there's a more plausible reason to her snottiness if she were pretty. Which so happens, she is NOT.

And even if she were pretty, in the core of the hearts of people, beauty counts for naught. It's the trueness of heart, the magnanimosity and generosity, the encompassing attitude that people are drawn towards.

Not a heavily made-up face, with blue eyeliner thick enough to paint a damned whale. Not scraps of cloth, barely enough to cover the bare essentials. Okay, maybe that was somewhat of an exaggeration, but it makes my point.

Let's not even go into the nitty-gritty details about how her daughter beat someone up. All in the name of fine upbringing, I suppose. The skills one teaches one's daughter in preparation for future beauty-queen career?

And I'd just like to add: I absolutely abhor the way the bloody freaking assshit of a mother enjoys staring down her nose at us. As if we're below her, and not worthy of her interest! No wonder your daughter reeks of this holier-than-thou air all the time. What am I to expect? Like mother, like daughter.

I'm sorry I missed the show where you totally messed yourself up.

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C'S DAD

Obviously, it was wrong to go and scold the kid. Even though the kid probably did deserve it, in my opinion. Actually, even if the kid didn't deserve to be scolded for the particular issue in question, she sure did deserve to be taken down a peg or two. Or twenty thousand.

Still. It shows, once again, the shallowness of human nature. To pick a fight with a defenceless kid, who obviously has nothing going for her in the face of an irate adult man, merely shows the caveman-like desire to intimidate the kid into meek submission.

Subjugation of females is already a hot debating topic, when the terrorizing of girls comes into play, the debating arena is going to become a bloody warfield, with rampaging horses, blaring trumpets and all.

That, in turn, shows extreme ignorance on the part of the adult. To not predict the actions of both the kid and said kid's mother was sheer stupidity. Sheesh.

Obviously, it would stand to reason that the mother would stand up for her child, especially if said child was crying from shock/fear, no? Apparently, that very evident fact failed to, in all it's sharpness, pierce the asinine grey matter of a certain parent. Which also makes said parent at fault, duh.

C'S MUM

And of course, if the mum hadn't stepped in to poke her sharp beakish nose where it didn't belong, the world would be at an end!

Both mothers were quarreling outside, paying no heed to the fact that they were acting like fishmongers' wives (it's an expression, no disrespect meant to fishmongers and their wives). Puh-lease. This kind of shrewish behaviour is best left to the harlots of olden days. Please, don't besmirch the name Singapore has so painstakingly built for herself.

Seeing as how they were caught up in their passionate, heated squabbling, the two crows, for lack of a more descriptive word, plainly didn't see the crowd gawping at them.

Freaking shrews. I'm surprised they didn't attack the teachers who attempted to pull them apart. Actually, maybe they did, and Brenda just spared me the gory details :/

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Meh. I think I found the side I'm standing on: C's parents.

Though it was wrong of them to retaliate the way they did, the damage they inflicted wasn't as bad as S's mum's. I'm not condoning their behaviour, but Brenda's account of how S's mum took it upon herself to label Wee Heng really just repulsed me. Does that woman have no dignity?


Frankly, I think the one who said that "I'm not coming back to this church anymore!" is S's mum.Though I doubt the real reason was because "I don't want my kid to get bullied here!" In all honesty, it was probably because reality struck then.

And she realized she had lost her composure, and consequently, all semblance of dignity she might have had. After all, this will be gossip fodder for the next couple of weeks, about how two parents fought tooth and nail with each other, like elementary kids.

Ah, the superficiality of the adult world.

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And this is where I show the picture I kop-ed from Rachel's blog :D





























HAHA I (figuratively) laughed my ass off when Rachel showed me this. Utterly brilliant xD

Hitler: the emokid.

Adolf Hitler. Did anyone bother to delve into his heart to learn more about his abusive childhood, which shaped him into the cruel dictator we all knew? He was merely a misguided child, and yet the world saw him through tainted lenses, as a heartless bigot who discriminated against Jews. No one understood him as the frightened child, who constantly shied away from Jews because of a fearful encounter with a drunken Jew at the tender age of ten, who tried to rape him.

During Hitler's reign, people lived in fear of the Nazis. Jews marked by the yellow star cursed him with all their hearts, minds and souls.

All they saw was a severe man, who imposed inexplicable rules to justify his "purging" of Germany. All they saw was a cold-blooded creature, who lived for the sole purpose of sending millions of innocent Jews to their deaths.

They never saw the iron-fisted man toss and turn in bed, in the dead of the night, subconscious battling the unforgiving memory of the drunken man's unstoppable advances. They never heard his sobbing breaths as he wailed into an empty chamber, devoid of even guards at his request. They never saw his tearstained sheets.

When Hitler committed suicide upon the ending of his reign, whispers abounded that it was to evade imprisonment, to avoid capture, being the innate coward that Hitler was. Nobody ever thought to think of Hitler's mental anguish, much like a child who had sweated blood and tears to build a sandcastle, only to have it torn down when the tide came in.

Nobody ever saw Hitler's sorrows. He was alone, the entire journey.

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HAHAHHAHHAA gosh I can't believe I wrote that xD Hitler: the misunderstood emokid :D

For anyone who did get conned, it was obviously untrue. Hahaha. Came off the top of my head, and made me feel infinitely insightful and understanding. Do I have the ability to become a psychiatrist, or do I have the ability to become a psychiatrist?

Analyzing Hitler's psych was sooo much fun, yeah.

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And...

Back to Rachel: ditch Justin, please. The post on Dahlberg's blog about sex tapes and dry humping positively traumatized me for life. If Justin ever becomes my cousin-in-law, I will never be able to look at him with a straight face :X

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burned the sheets at 23:50

Sunday, May 11, 2008



2.4 IS TOMORROW. AT 0645.

Bleah.

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burned the sheets at 19:02


crazed.


What the hell.

I really don't get what his freaking problem is. Shouldn't guys be less concerned about this kind of thing? Suffice to say that I expected him to either brush it off or make a sarcastic joke about it.

For him to react so intensely, it was weird, to say the least :/

Fine. It was my fault, for taking the joke too far and telling Olivia that. BUT STILL-

I'm sorry, but I still think he was an immense ass for acting that way he did. I could tell he was trying not to yell at me >:(

Freaking shit.

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burned the sheets at 18:52

Thursday, May 8, 2008


snapping sanity.


You know. Really.

I don't need your effing brand of shit. I get enough from everyone already.

Just one more straw to break the camel's back.

Watch it. I'm this close to blowing up.

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On a (not much) less horrible note, today was, for lack of better superlatives, terrible.

Amath test sucked majorly, as usual. And let's not forget the hideous bouts of giddiness I had prior to and throughout Physics test.

Maybe it was the lack of sleep, but I felt so easily pissed off today :/ Not that anyone noticed, of course :3

No one ever notices, anyway.

Fuck.

I'm thinking of Anj again.

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Omf I really really don't need you barging in and trying to take charge of my life.

I think I'm doing pretty fine managing my own life, thank you very much.

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I bleeding need to punch someone black and blue. And red.

Or break something.

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burned the sheets at 21:52

Sunday, May 4, 2008


wanting to tear federer from limb to limb and scrub the disgusting look off his face


RAGE-CHAN. DO NOT READ THIS. Though it's not like you can kill me from halfway round the world XD

Yesterday's Straits Times reminded me why exactly I loathe Federer with all my being don't like Federer.

I quote: "I'm chasing Olympic gold, my sixth Wimbledon, my fifth US Open, my first French Open."

GOD. What an egoistical pig.

Yes, yes we do know that Federer is the top player in the tennis world. Still, is it necessary (and dignified) for him to personally spout accolade after accolade of his? The article was supposed to be about Nadal, for goodness' sake. And when Roger Federer opens his big mouth, he just has to snatch the limelight, like an attention starved ADC (attention deficit child).

What part of the word 'modesty' does that man not understand?

And anyway, that French Open title will never be Federer's. Not unless both Nadal and Djokovic retire beforehand.

Puh-lease. Clay courts are so totally owned by Nadal. Federer? No way in hell.

And he has the damned gall to claim that 'I'm a natural on clay', when Nadal has won on clay 100 out of 101 times.

Also, for him to say that his goal is to beat Sampras' record, just reveals just exactly how self-absorbed he is. 11 Grand Slams under his belt, and he believes he can just get another 3 *snaps fingers* just like that?

Asshole. The extent of his self-importance and ego utterly astounds me. Because. He is bleeding assuming that he will win the rest of the Grand Slam titles this year.

When he didn't even make it to the Australian Open finals this year. Djokovic beat him flat out. Sucker.

On a rather irrelevant note, I always thought Federer looked infuriatingly condescending.

Maybe that's why I always did enjoy reading PoT future!fics where Echizen beat Federer hollow. And Federer, of course, took it like the loser he is. Because he simply cannot accept that he's out of Echizen's league, and way too old too XD

I think I have one such fic, at least, in my computer. Shall go find it and be smug over Federer's virtual loss >:D

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burned the sheets at 18:11

Thursday, May 1, 2008


blood will spurt like a geyser, i swear.


I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO BOOT BLOGGER, LIKE IT SO RIGHTEOUSLY DESERVES.

BECAUSE. It keeps screwing with my html. If you haven't noticed, there are always weird html codes hanging randomly in my posts.

Point: I DON'T USE HTML IN MY POSTS.

As long as I put italics in, the html (at least some of it) starts appearing for no reason.

Now I am very tempted to switch to lj. BUT MY FICS.

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Been ages since I listened to Seishun Amigo :D

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burned the sheets at 16:33

Wednesday, April 30, 2008



Effing shit. I started reading Gokusen fics, all over again.

And I want to watch Zettai Kareshi. And I will.

And I just remembered that I watched Tokyo Tower halfway, if I remember correctly.

And somehow, Tokyo Tower isn't in my computer anymore. I don't know why :l

And I never finished watching First Kiss. Nor Proposal Daisakusen. Nor Kurosagi. Nor Yoiko no Mikata. Nor BR 2. Nor Iryu. Nor Iryu 2. Nor Sapuri. Nor Stand up!

Meh.

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burned the sheets at 00:04

Tuesday, April 29, 2008


falling from the sky


Been blogging more and more. I wonder why. No, seriously.

Today was so... blah. It was just like wading through this thick mass of THING, and attempting to make sense of the uninteresting events happening all around me. Though sometimes I wonder if I even want to know what's going on at all -.-

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Can I say just how my absolute hate for plasticine has reached an altogether different strata? Physics SPA skill 3 today. It was utter HATE. Yellow plasticine got caught in my nails, and left a horrible plasticine-rubber smell lingering on my hands. Despite washing my hands with soap. THREE times.

BAH.

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Vanessa and I commenced our argument from yesterday, about the Kaname/Zero Seme-Uke issue? I firmly stand by what I said. Kaname = Seme. Jolene was in shock for about 20 seconds, when she heard the pairing we were discussing arguing about XD

AND VANESSA. ZERO/ICHIRU IS SO NO GO.

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Then cym talked to me. About my chinese ._.

Well, pardon me for not liking Chinese.

Okay, I mean, I really do want my Chinese to improve, contrary to what my attitude may seem. But yeah, well, I think I'm just not willing to put in the effort and time that studying Chinese will entail.

And fine, I admit, I'm not writing not-so-complimentary stuff about cym because he is a STALKER. LIKE QINGWEI. Who thinks he knows me so well just because he knows that I like Japanese guys -.-

Meh.

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And yes. Haha never thought I'd find another anime/manga fan in SN online (: Thanks to rage-chan :D

Hi Renyue!

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burned the sheets at 18:59

Monday, April 28, 2008



RAGE-CHAN IF YOU'RE READING THIS.

Haha I honestly didn't mean to scare you with that post. Or anyone else. Except Olivia XD

Yes yes. So are you from SN? Because the links that led me all over the place all belonged to SN people. BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL RANTING ABOUT SJ SLC :/

The consequences of which I must say I do not appreciate. Neither does Mrs Tian, for the record XD Because the Sec 3 level was a supremely noisy bunch today. Constantly cheering.

NOISE TRAVELS UPWARDS, PEOPLE :l

I'm so sorry, Rage-chan. Haha this wasn't meant to turn into a ranting post :3

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AND I POSTED CHAPTER 9 OF LU YESTERDAY. I think it was yesterday, if memory serves me right. Though that in itself is an utterly debatable topic :X

But Kidnapped seemed a little... filler-ish? And I feel bad, not updating more often.

I mean, what kind of loser writer churns out a lousy 10 chapters over a period of 2 freaking years?! Not to mention each chapter never got past 900 words.

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Somehow, I was suddenly reminded of Louisa's fantastic news this morning.

NADAL WON FEDERER IN MONTECARLO FINALS :DDDDD

WHOOTS.

But whyyyyy did Djokovic have to retire :/

Though I don't think I could've taken sides if it had been Djokovic vs. Nadal.

Federer was going to lose anyway.

TAKE THAT, LOUISA. FEDERER'S LOSING HIS TOUCH XDDDD

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Vanessa takes sick to a new height. And that's saying something pretty incredible, seeing as how she's the one who's always been setting the bar.

ZERO/KANAME. WTF.

I think I kind of threw up in my mouth when she told me her favourite pairing in VK. That is a hardcore yaoi fan.

And Hell, if that pairing were canon, Kaname would so be seme, please. Zero = Uke.

I will not comment anymore on this sick, sick topic.

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KARINA AND I ARE SOULMATES. WE BOTH AGREE AARON IS A HORRID JERK.

KILL AARON CAMPAIGN :DD

I mean, please. Aaron's this heartless, unfaithful, unfeeling jerk. He's in lust with Emee. And he still tries to manipulate her feelings for him, to coerce her into his bed.

And Ette. Omg the bitch.

AND SQUEE *_* ALEX.

SOOO HOT.

"From now on, the two of you stay the fuck away from Emee. Do you understand me? Just keep the fuck away from her, because if I ever find out that you tried speaking to her, I will run my car over your bodies and mutilate them. And that’s a promise.”

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burned the sheets at 22:15

Sunday, April 27, 2008


eye of newt, and toe of frog.


OMG. SHIT.

I WILL RIP OLIVIA ONG FROM LIMB TO LIMB AND SHRED HER SKIN.

WTF.

And I have a very good inkling who "they" is. Namely, CHEM CLASS, VANESSA. AND QUAH.

AND LET'S NOT FORGET MANN.

OMG MANN OF ALL PEOPLE.

I am utterly insulted. Yet, I can't help feeling absolutely amused, too.

XD

I mean, me and Joshua is so impossible it's ludicrous.

Hasn't anybody heard of friends, for goodness' sake!

I mean, shit, he likes *ahem*, and I'm just NOT INTERESTED.

And because I just told Olivia: "I will viciously murder you next saturday. You can read my blog to get an overview on how your death will be like. A preview of sorts.", this part is meant for Olivia Ong Siying to read. Other people may feel free too, as well. But at your own risk of not being able to sleep tonight >:D

CAUTION: DO NOT EAT AT LEAST 2 HOURS PRIOR TO TREATMENT; FOOD MIGHT SPILL OUT FROM GUTS.

1. I will slash a grater over your bare back, then pour salt in. Perhaps a couple of rusty nails might find their way in the NaCl too, I can't really say. It's supposed to be a surprise. Specifically, that particular treatment is known as Iron Surprise.

2. After which, I will grace you with my artistic abilities. Literally. And you get a choice too! Any available tool of your choice (i.e. knife, dagger etc.) will thereby be wielded by yours truly to carve out intrinsic, artistic patterns on anywhere in your body. I recommend the face or torso. The back isn't good to work with anymore. Given that the skin there will be bloody and raw.

3. I can adorn you with a preeety necklace. Think: the metal neck brace in Battle Royale. The one that would blow up at the push of a button? Yeah, that's the one. Your's will be done in blood :D

Che. Why don't you have more limbs? Else the fun is so limited. But whatever. We'll just have to make do.

4. Let's see. Fingers first, shall we? Pliers will be used to yank each fingernail out from your fingers. One by one. Once again, you are spoilt for choice. You get to choose which finger you want to start with, and on which hand too. Fear not, this procedure inches along slowly, and you are guaranteed the full pain you have requested for.

5. After the Fingernail Treatment, as it is popularly known as, it is the Toenail Treatment. Not very creative naming, I know. But it is a Results Guaranteed, Or Your Money Back treatment. Therefore, have faith (:

The Toenail Treatment is somewhat similar to the Fingernail Treatment, but is a slight variation. Instead of pliers, the Toenail Treatment gains uniqueness from it's form of execution: by hand. As a VIP, you get the personal touch from yours truly :D A scalpel, will be used to cut each toenail from their individual toes. Unfortunately, due to the risky undertakings of this process, the client will not be able to get a choice as to which toes will be done first. So sorry to spoil your fengshui :/

6. The Toenail Treatment preludes what is known as Fungus Infestation. Here, the still-raw and bleeding toes will be placed in a tub of leeches. Contrary to popular belief, leeches do not prevent infections. Rather, they encourage it. For this very reason, leeches are employed in this treatment, to urge the speed of the growth of potential fungus. As an added bonus, this is absolutely free of charge, as it is a sub-treatment that follows the Toenail Treatment.

The body is done. Now's the face's turn :D We're making great progress :DDD

7. Your eyes will be dealt with first, to plunge you into darkness and enable you to further immerse yourself in the exquisite sensation of sharp, stinging pain. At this point of time, your nerves should feel like they're on fire, and pain should be gnawing from deep inside.

You will be tied to the wall. Do not attempt to break free, for the manacles are studded with shrapnels of glass, and are intended to slash without compunction. You will be requested to open your eyes. DO NOT IN ANY CIRCUMSTANCE CLOSE YOUR EYES. Your eyes will be glazed with honey. And a swarm of bees will be released. If you would prefer wasps or hornets, kindly tell our staff beforehand, and arrangements can be made. DURING THIS PROCESS, PLEASE DO NOT OPEN YOUR MOUTH, FOR REASONS WHICH WILL BE LATER EXPLAINED.

Now, you are blinded. Whether the blindness is temporary or permanent depends on the individual. Torture Inc. will not be held responsible for any unwanted repercussions.

8. Poison Sting. Centipedes will be poured into your mouth. Do attempt to move your tongue as much as possible to agitate the centipedes, and thus provoke multiple stings.

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I shall stop here, because Quah can see me online and is telling me not to be late XD

And also because I am utterly in awe of the creative ability I possess.

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That really helped me relieve a lot of stress. Imagining Olivia in that state >:D Which is why I don't understand why I'm more of an auditory learner than a visual one :l

HAH OLI. THAT'LL TEACH YOU TO SPREAD UNTRUE RUMORS. EVIL THINGG.

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burned the sheets at 11:10

Saturday, April 19, 2008



QINGWEI. STOP STALKING ME. AT LEAST TAG, OR SOMETHING. AND STOP SAYING THAT MY JAP GUYS ARE UNKNOWN. JUST BECAUSE PEOPLE KNOW WHO JESSICA ALBA AND CAMERON DIAZ ARE.. tsk.

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Eh. Jiafeng and Jolene have somehow come to the utterly idiotic conclusion that I am a fic-churner.

Yeah, I am. In maybe about two hundred years.

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Finished watching Titanic today; damn nice!

Kate Winslet looks older than Leonardo DiCaprio, though -.-

But really. It's a sad, sad movie. But so beautiful. And James Cameron is an excellent artist, I must say. And whoever acted as Rose's fiance did an excellent job being an utter jerk. I officially hate him now.

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Vampire Knight is a stupendous anime and manga :DDD

I'm still only at Chapter 17 of the manga, but it's great progress for 3 days of fandom worship :D

Watched the anime episode 2 already.

Have I mentioned how much I'm in love with the drawings? No?

Well, at first I thought the manga drawings, especially of Kaname, were weird, 'cause the anime's seems so much better. But maybe I'm used to it now or something, 'cause Kaname looks perfectly delicious in the manga now :D

Minagawa Junko's Ruka's seiyuu. And SUWABE JUNICHI is Kain's seiyuu <3 style="font-style: italic;">nothing like Tamaki to me -.- I fail to comprehend how he sounds like Tamaki, like Jolene and Karina claim.

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Shit. My wrist just snapped. Is the damned CTS back to inflict my left wrist this time?

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And I have made long long lists of animes/mangas/Jdramas I have and intend to watch. I'm feeling rather pleased now (:

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burned the sheets at 22:42

Thursday, April 17, 2008



It makes your blood boil? And I suppose I don't have blood?

I hope your blood vaporizes and you die. Pffft.

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burned the sheets at 19:46

Saturday, April 12, 2008



You know you've had too much amath when you start thinking about differentiation in the bath.

You know you've had too much lit when you think of John Grisham as John Gilmer. (Mockingbird)

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I was in a bloody pissed mood this evening.

Thanks Oli, Quah, Joshua. For cheering me up. Though you didn't really know it XD

But really. Oli's smses entertained me and took my mind off what I didn't want it on. Though her insinuations sometime are abit...

But then again, it's fun to tease Oli about Y(ong). AHAHHAHA. Inside joke XD

Quah has exams next Monday and be around for chem, leaving us at the hands of an unknown person. With whom I will have lessons alone 0.O What a scary thought.

Have I mentioned how Joshua can't change Saturday timeslot? GAH. Then Mann keeps chasing me about changing slots -.-

Kenneth didn't pick on me so much today. That's something to be grateful for :D

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burned the sheets at 23:38

Wednesday, April 9, 2008


really, now.


Was actually thinking about making this blog private.

Changed my mind, obviously.

After writing "fic" (points to previous post), I went digging deeper.

Then I found out the actual extent of damage. How many people actually know.

At first, I admit, I was all like wtf, you've ruined my reputation.

Then I realized, that the people who actually believe what has been said and want to ostracize me aren't really worth having as friends. I mean, what kind of friends immediately take one side without bothering to approach the issue from an objective point of view?

You can treat me like an outcast and an antisocial. Maybe you're blinded now. Or maybe you're just prejudiced. I don't want to be judgmental about such a vague topic.

I just want to say that people who don't judge, are the people who really matter.

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Nevermind you making the allusion about the stooping down to my level thing. Maybe you're more sly, more cunning, more elusive in your approaches.

Now what does that say about you, I wonder.

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Talking to Joshua has brought my language down to a more barbaric level D: (note the wtf)

Noooo.

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burned the sheets at 21:36



Fucking bitch.
In every line that was written, I see words that aren't written, but everyone can see. Don't pretend you're this innocent victim in this entire thing.

Since you saw fit to publicize the entire matter, let's get down to the ugly, shall we?

I hate how you were are so bimbotic.
I hate how you were are so boy-crazy.
I hate how you were are so vain.
I hate how you were are such an attention whore.
I hate how you were are so competitive and still pretended not to be.
I hate how you were so cavalier about using my stuff.
I hate how you treated treat us like your backup plan.
I hate how you pretend to be magnanimous. Hypocrite.
I hate how you act as if you're the victim in the entire incident.
I hate how you push your way into everything. As if you have any credibility to begin with.
I hate how you dragged me into your ridiculous shenanigans. That did me more bad than it ever did good.

And for the record, I don't regret a word I said to you ever before.

Let's just forget it, shall we. There was never anything to begin with.

But to be fair, I dare you. I dare you to deny that what I have said is totally untrue and was written out of mere spite.

The more I see, the madder I get. So, get out.

You're not fit to be part of my life.

No, I'm not angry yet. Just extremely annoyed.

But watch it. You're pushing it, already.

And when I bear grudges, they linger for years.

I have many more things I'd like to complain about, but I'm afraid they're really not for public eyes. I admit; they're pretty ugly (oxymoron!). So don't make me do something I don't want to do.

Really. I think this shall be the last post of this nature. I hope. Despite me being hot-tempered, it's not easy to get me so riled up for such a long period of time. But when I do get mad, I go crazily ballistic.

No one wants a repeat of an incident several years past. Including me. So stop trying to stretch boundaries.

Attempting to erase the line won't help; it's drawn in indelible permanent marker.

So really. If I were you, I'd watch my back closely from now on. Really closely. This is a warning.

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I shall attempt to channel my bubbling frustration into fic. Hopefully, for once, you've proven useful.

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burned the sheets at 19:08

Monday, April 7, 2008



Went to run with Brenda today.

Obviously we didn't accomplish much.

I can only hope that what we assumed is correct, and the track is 800 meters longs. That's more comforting. Somewhat.

Thereafter, we promptly over-replenished the weight we lost by getting a Subway melt. And cookies. I'm trying to convince myself that fresh food is indeed equivalent to healthy food.

It's not working. Not really D:

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It's the seventh of April, and I've already spent 40-odd bucks DD:

I have a faint inkling what my money has been swallowed up by. FOOD.

Saturday was soup at tuition with Oli.
Sunday was soup (courtesy of Joshua), and chicken sandwich at tuition. Bought 1.5 liters of Coke, chicken biscuit and honey stars at the supermart.
Went to school today, and suddenly realized that I asked Denise to help me buy seaweed.
Today was twelve six bucks blown at Subway. (Brenda and I split)

Voila. Bye, allowance. Hello obesity.

And Joshua paid no heed to my vulnerable fat issue. The sodding sucker.

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Quah was... amusing, yesterday.

I can't really remember. But I know that I was amused by her. I always am, actually. Now that I think about it :O

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BAH. My life is screwed up. Really tight. With all those knots and twists that are virtually impossible to disentangle.

GAAAAHHHH.

Kudos to iTunes, for brightening up my day. Riightt.

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burned the sheets at 23:45

JOY