Wednesday, May 21, 2008


one shot to my soul -


Um. Well. I just realized that my last few posts have all been a little... emo-ish? Heh. And all because I was pissed at the computer :/

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Haha anyway today was absolutely blazing hot. I think my brain melted. Or got fried. Literally. Which explains the conversation I held with Vanessa today. It had... Questionable Content. Yes, capital letters.

Vanessa claims it's R21, I think at most NC16, though. It'll be posted either tomorrow or the day after, depending on how fast Vanessa finishes typing it out. The conversation was three pages long, courtesy of my trashed-consent-forms-turned-rough-paper.

Yanyi was the only one who survived reading the entire three pages. Nobody else (ie. Jacy, Cassandra, Lokyin etc) could bear to go past the first page xD Too, uh, graphic.

It was about who's better in bed: Kaname or Zero. Kaname so obviously pwns all. And no, this isn't Kaname/Zero pairing we're talking about. It's (Kaname or Zero)/Yuuki :D

And we kinda co-wrote Kaname/Yuuki fic! Haha it's barely half a page long, but it has great potential. Though it's the most, uh, graphically perverse fic I've ever written. Though that's not saying much, seeing as how I've almost never written, well, porn.

It's definitely not the most graphic Vanessa has written. That's a feat.

Yes well. JIAFENG WAS BEING SICK when she read the fic :X Of all the weird things to say, she had to go, "Eh you can change it to Fate with it!" Cue confused look from me. She clarifies, "You know, with add-ons!" Gawd.

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I really shouldn't be blogging when I have 5 Literature essays to prepare, and an unseen prose to do. And plenty of backlog I really really need to catch up on. And Peiyun's birthday fic to write. Though I'm not writing today :D

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burned the sheets at 17:36

Friday, May 9, 2008


stark.


Brenda really ought to be grateful to me for standing up for her, albeit 7 days too late haha xD

I mean, really. My rebuttal to her horrid tagboard spammer is 505 words long :D

9 May 08, 21:59

joy/"ashley": I really don't care who you are. Whoever you are, it doesn't matter to me. All I see is an extremely bitter, petty person who has nothing better to do with her pathetic life and has to resort to taking her frustrations over her failure of her life out on someone who leads an extremely fulfilling life and is supremely happy with whoever she's friends with. Unlike you, of course. Because you probably don't have friends. Then again, that's an assumption on my part, so I apologize if it's actually untrue. Because though the number may be in the minority, there are no doubt other people like you who thrive on insulting people. Unoriginal insults, at that.

And, point: the FBI/CID are meant for legitimate, state-sanctioned investigations. they are not assassins/ninjas. And in case you were unaware, both are US-based. In other words: not in Singapore.

But I forgive you for your obvious ignorance. I mean, I can understand how the uneducated feel. Go get a certified education; throw in a few counselling sessions (ie. >50 sessions) and I guarantee you will no longer harbour such cynical and narrow-minded thoughts.

And may I ask, how does Brenda act like a faux "holy Christian"? I’m not saying she's pure and all, but isn't that the point of becoming a Christian? To have God cleanse us of our sins. Heaven was created for us sinners. Jesus was sent down to earth and crucified to save sinners like us. So. Please, don't let Jesus' sacrifice go for naught by being an unrepentant fool.

If you don't mind, I’d like to ask, what exactly is wrong with lesbians? Are you so unconfident about your sexuality that you see the immense need to condemn people who are confident enough in their sexual orientation to actually admit it publicly? Are you homophobic? I’m not approving of homosexuality, but being able to admit to oneself the deviation in one's sexual orientation is a supremely difficult task that requires iron willpower and honesty. If you can't be brutally honest with yourself, does that not stand to mean that the probability of you lying to others and coming across as a hypocrite is even higher? Besides, being able to face the facts instead of recoiling into denial is the first step to salvation. if you can accept that there is something wrong with you, then you can work towards resolving that problem. Denial and lying is so not the way to go, please.

And for once, I agree with what you said: you ARE indeed childish. Your comments reek of biasness and the unrelenting temper tantrums of 3-year-olds. Not that I’m criticizing you, mind you. But I do recommend first getting into a decent school, then seeking out the counsellor there. Perhaps he/she might be able to recommend you a better, more-qualified and able professional who is able to help you with your evident self-esteem issues. I wish you all the best in your quest to becoming a better person (:

Have faith, dearie.

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And Eugene paid me the highest of compliments :D

"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
no i mean not flaming
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
verbal k.o.
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
o_O
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
haha that's the correct term
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
is that good or bad?
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
verbal ko
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
depends on who's dealing it right haha
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
the one who got k-o'ed is probably sadded
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:D
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then my mission is accomplished
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
but i'm not done yet hahaha
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
i'm still reading her tags first
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
whoa doing research
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
scary
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
:D
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
know thy enemy
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
wow sunzi bing fa
"僕の名前は。夜空下 悠二。”Y.u.u.j.i|皆さん、ごきげんよう! このままで嫌だ! もっと素晴らしい世界に生きたい世界には偶然がいない、唯必然はある。 says:
haha
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
XD
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
hey don't underestimate the people of old okay!

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RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
WATCH ZETTAI KARESHI!
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
<3
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haha night!
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
i mean, goodnight
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
i thought you say night-to
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
not Night in Zettai Kareshit
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
-.-
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
HAHAA
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
OMG KARESHIT
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
HAHHHAHAHHAHA
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
WHAT
RAINING MUSHROOMS! says:
HOW CAN YOU
let the ink flow, and the blood spill says:
oops

I still cannot believe I said KareSHIT. GUH.

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I'm going to download VK Episode 5 now. Before I forget it's out already and Eugene has to ask me again -.-

And Oli's sick D: Poor thing. High fever.

Shall ask Quah to shift chem to morning. 9 perhaps? Not sure. If I can wake up T.T

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Have decided not to split this post into two :3

So. Today.

Was singularly uneventful. Something I'm grateful for.

Poor Dawn fell down and got badly injured, though. Blood :/

More importantly, she lost all her Aiba memorabilia! The agony DD:

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Cleared shed today. It was actually alright bringing the wood in and out and carrying the metal rack.

It was the rotting, termite-infested poles that disgusted the hell out of me. At first. I think I got termites on me too >:(

Then, it became normal to touch the rotten wood. Though the termites are still as gross as ever.

And I was impressed by Sharon Law (guider), at least I think that's her name. She bothered to help us lift and tie up the tarpaulin of the shed, and even helped to carry the rack. She also sat there enduring the blazing heat of the midday sun with us.

Though it doesn't seem like a monumental sacrifice that she has made, it was something I'd never seen any of our current guiders do. Expect maybe Ms Lee.

Honestly, can anyone imagine the skanky, old T.T and J.S doing this kind of hands on thing? They'd be fanning themselves; "Aiyoh, so hot!"

One would be afraid of breaking her newly French manicured nails. The other would be frying in her own fat.

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I will get Silver!

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Oh. Man. NOW my mother tells me Sunday lunch is cancelled. After I've told Quah and Oli I want to change time!

=.=

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And I may write fic for Peiyun :D About L and T. And maybe translate that to nanofate. No, Jiafeng, this is not a cue for you to get excited. It's NOT a promise.

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burned the sheets at 23:09

Monday, April 28, 2008



RAGE-CHAN IF YOU'RE READING THIS.

Haha I honestly didn't mean to scare you with that post. Or anyone else. Except Olivia XD

Yes yes. So are you from SN? Because the links that led me all over the place all belonged to SN people. BECAUSE THEY WERE ALL RANTING ABOUT SJ SLC :/

The consequences of which I must say I do not appreciate. Neither does Mrs Tian, for the record XD Because the Sec 3 level was a supremely noisy bunch today. Constantly cheering.

NOISE TRAVELS UPWARDS, PEOPLE :l

I'm so sorry, Rage-chan. Haha this wasn't meant to turn into a ranting post :3

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AND I POSTED CHAPTER 9 OF LU YESTERDAY. I think it was yesterday, if memory serves me right. Though that in itself is an utterly debatable topic :X

But Kidnapped seemed a little... filler-ish? And I feel bad, not updating more often.

I mean, what kind of loser writer churns out a lousy 10 chapters over a period of 2 freaking years?! Not to mention each chapter never got past 900 words.

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Somehow, I was suddenly reminded of Louisa's fantastic news this morning.

NADAL WON FEDERER IN MONTECARLO FINALS :DDDDD

WHOOTS.

But whyyyyy did Djokovic have to retire :/

Though I don't think I could've taken sides if it had been Djokovic vs. Nadal.

Federer was going to lose anyway.

TAKE THAT, LOUISA. FEDERER'S LOSING HIS TOUCH XDDDD

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Vanessa takes sick to a new height. And that's saying something pretty incredible, seeing as how she's the one who's always been setting the bar.

ZERO/KANAME. WTF.

I think I kind of threw up in my mouth when she told me her favourite pairing in VK. That is a hardcore yaoi fan.

And Hell, if that pairing were canon, Kaname would so be seme, please. Zero = Uke.

I will not comment anymore on this sick, sick topic.

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KARINA AND I ARE SOULMATES. WE BOTH AGREE AARON IS A HORRID JERK.

KILL AARON CAMPAIGN :DD

I mean, please. Aaron's this heartless, unfaithful, unfeeling jerk. He's in lust with Emee. And he still tries to manipulate her feelings for him, to coerce her into his bed.

And Ette. Omg the bitch.

AND SQUEE *_* ALEX.

SOOO HOT.

"From now on, the two of you stay the fuck away from Emee. Do you understand me? Just keep the fuck away from her, because if I ever find out that you tried speaking to her, I will run my car over your bodies and mutilate them. And that’s a promise.”

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burned the sheets at 22:15

Friday, April 25, 2008


those tortured, melancholic souls


W-ELL.

I obviously have not finished Blood Lovers. Haven't touched it since that first day, in fact >:(

Let's not even mention Love, Unbidden -.-

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CHEER UP JOSHUA :D

MEGAN WILL COME AROUND HAHA. Really.

And a little piece of wisdom. Guys will never fully comprehend girls. So don't give yourself headaches trying. And just be yourself. She'll come around (:

It's the first real conversation that I've ever had with Joshua. I'm surprised he actually has this open, vulnerable side. First guy I've seen who's opened up like that. Would've thought guys'd be all about machismo and looking strong.

Pianists have more sensitive souls, indeed.

And though I refused to thank you earlier, thanks. NO, this isn't the cue for you to start being smug smugger than usual.

Because really. Your music calms me down, and gets me in the study mood (I hope). But no. I am not eternally grateful.

And you realize that I'm refuting before you even say anything?

Thanks to you, classical music now takes up 1.11 gigabytes of my computer harddisk space. Oh well. I have 30 gigabytes to spare, anyhow.

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I SURVIVED DAY TWO OF MOTIVATIONAL WORKSHOP.

We did profiling today.

Surprise, surprise.

I'm a right and left-brainer. WHYY. I really don't fit in either category, though.

And I'm a visual and auditory learner. Whether that bodes well or not, I have yet to come to a definite conclusion. Both, as almost anything does, have their pros and cons, I guess.

And on the DISC personality quadrant, I'm a choleric.

I feel so anal-retentive D: And nitpicky. Well. At least I know I'm somewhat like Atticus HAHA. Same in the public streets and at home. Provided that the test really does operate at a 98 percent accurate rate XD

TOMORROW. I HAVE TO BE UP AT 6AM. FOR DAY THREE OF WORKSHOP. GAHH.

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I WILL ATTEMPT TO CLEAR MY ROOM. SHALL SLEEP AT 12, LATEST.

YES, RACHEL TEO. I WILL OKAY. AND I WILL CLEAR MY ROOM BY SUNDAY AND PROVE YOU WRONG.

Oh, ye of little faith.

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WHY ISN'T VK EPISODE 3 OUT YET.

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burned the sheets at 23:20


a mere shadow of my past -


WOW. I JUST FREED UP 30 GIGABYTES IN MY COMPUTER, DELETING PRINCE OF TENNIS AND LOVELESS.

Sure, I'm sad. But maybe, just maybe, I really had to do this, to get out from the shadow of my addiction. Cold turkey, so to speak.

I feel sad, yet oddly relieved. Perhaps I know I still have a modicum of control over my own life; contrary to what -AHEM- other people think, anime/manga/Jdramas do not rule my life. Not anymore, at least :D

Then again, now there's Vampire Knight :/ But that's another story, for another time XD

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OH BUT BUT BUT.

DAMNED SHIT LA.

I deleted all the OVAs first, then realized that I haven't put them in Joshua's thumbdrive yet. SHIT.

But that horrible guy is damned rude. I was all SHIT SHIT SHIT. I DELETED THE OVAS.

And guess what he said?

WTF. GO FIGURE SOMETHING OUT. I'M BUSY.

What. The. Hell. Here I am, helping you download videos, and you give me this kind of crap, like I'm obliged to do you such favours. It was okay at the start, but now his presumptuousness is really getting on my last nerve.

I'm really glad I won't be seeing him this Saturday. Bloody idiot.

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AND MOODTHEMES HAVE BECOME MY NEW LOVE <333

Haha figured out how to customize my own moodtheme and whatnot on lj, and I got myself a new VK moodtheme :DDD

Am a happy girl now.

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And fic isn't coming along. Damn.

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Maybe tomorrow? I don't know. And LU, huh.

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Must remember to ask Kenneth if can order test tubes.

Wish Quah luck for tomorrow(today?)'s exam. Must remember to tell her about tuesday's SPA.

Figure out how to use Flock (no, not lj flock, web browser). It really pissed me off today, when I was trying to upload moodtheme images >:(

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And there's that motivational workshop again tomorrow. Anything to have lessons replaced by more enriching stuff.

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burned the sheets at 00:34

Wednesday, April 23, 2008



I CANNOT UNDERSTAND WHY PEOPLE FIND KANAME CREEPY. GRR.

KANAME IS HOT, PLEASE.

AND SDFGHJKL'L;; That picture of him licking blood <3 *_*

Okay, that sounds seriously wrong. But go look at it. Kuran Kaname gives new meaning to hawtness.

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And fic! Haha the longest I have ever written for a oneshot and it isn't even done yet! 909 words :D I feel accomplished. Though writing that last night might not have been the best idea. At the expense of my amath differentiation test ;_;

I really really want to finish Blood Lovers by tonight (I just thought of that name! :D), and maybe maybe maybe if I'm lucky then Love, Unbidden Chapter 9 by the end of this week. Though that is highly improbable, given how I'll be shuttling back and forth from school for 8am to 6pm school days :/

BAH. I THINK BLOOD LOVERS SUCKS.

There, now I've said it. I mean, it really does. I think the only reason Jiafeng said it was nice was 'cause she hasn't read the manga, and doesn't realize that it's the same sequence as the manga :X

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MEH.

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burned the sheets at 17:33

Monday, April 21, 2008


a spectacular crash and burn;


DID I MENTION I FINISHED READING VAMPIRE KNIGHT AT 2 AM THIS MORNING? NO? WELL I DID (:

He would give his life to wipe the tears from her face, and to rid the pain from her heart. Yet, now, he is the one who has caused those tears to flow, and that heart to shatter.

But he knows, he knows of the consequences he faces if he were to continue their love. He would rather she hate him, than have her suffer at the hands of people who oppose them.

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She smiles bitterly; her eyes are still swollen, but the tears have long dried.

The blade glints in the dim sunlight the rich brocade of the curtains let in.

Metal flashes across pale skin, and crimson flows.

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They find her the next day, eyes open and unseeing. Stained fingers clasped loosely around a bloodstained penknife. Lips, pale and curved slightly upward.

And there, stark against the white marble, the words: I LOVE YOU.

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He regrets it for the rest of his life. After all, he loved her too.



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BAH.

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burned the sheets at 19:49

Saturday, April 5, 2008



Because KARON SOMEBODY complained that I didn't talk about my FRIENDS, I actually did write a complain post two days ago :D But I deleted it just now from my drafts after re-reading it. Because I felt mean and bitchy.

See Karon, the guilt trips these kind of things bring me is so not worth writing about actual life. I'd much rather stick to my fangirling stuff :D

But. Hey. I'm nice. So I shall humour you, just this once :)

So. Went for ACSI campfire gangshow yesterday. Wasn't bad, compared to other campfires. Though I must admit I was slightly disappointed at the lack of substance in the performances. I had such high expectations of ACSI, after all. ACS(BR)'s gangshow a zillion years ago (sec one I think) was so much better.

I think the highlight of the night was the breakdancing. Yep. Why do ALL the ACS guys apparently know how to breakdance? The highlight for py, obviously, was the refreshments :D

Vanessa asked me and Dawn to find some Dr Ong's hill. Okay this doesn't make sense, and I'm lazy to explain, but heck. Let's just leave it at that.

See Karon, I think this suitably explains why I don't like writing about real life. Because it's so utterly mundane and boring. And I have to explain, as if people are even reading this. Mission: failed.

I think I'll stick to fangasming, thank you very much :D

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I really really want to work on HYD fic Chapter 9, especially after seeing Vanessa write 4 chapters at a shot for her crack fic D:

Why why why can't I write like that? Grr.

Anyway, I already have a basic plot outline for Chapter 9, but I don't know how to kickstart the entire thing. Though, for once, I have a title before the content actually comes out. Kidnapped. Actually, that just only came to mind. But it's appropriate enough :D

And 50episodes is officially deaddormant I don't think I will be touching it for a while more. Until I find out how to use lj filters, at least. How else am I supposed to write rated fics?

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burned the sheets at 12:43

Monday, March 31, 2008



I HAVE CTS. Apparently. My wrist is killing me.

I feel inexplicably happy now. Finished Chapter 8 of the HYD fic in 2 days. After claiming that I've been super busy and have writer's block D: And I feel kinda guilty for making people wait for updates DD:

But nevermind. Chapter 8's up! And reviews made me feel loved :) I doubt any of my ffnet readers'll see this, but here's a big thank you to you guys anyway! Fic is one of the few highlights in my horrible life ;D

Hopefully, Chapter 9 will make it's appearance soon? I'm trying to work on it. Ain't easy when you've kind of left the fandom and are unable to recall much about the story :/ AND SO MUCH FOR WANTING TO FOCUS ON WRITING TEZURYO/POT FICS.

Geh. I am made of lose :3

Am wondering how I should start writing SP.

AND I HAVEN'T MENTIONED HOW HAPPY I AM AT THE REALIZATION THAT I AM ABLE TO READ JAPANESE. Really. It came as a surprise to me that I actually can read japanese doujinshi and understand. Though it's damn slow :O

AND I WANT TO RANT. ABOUT HOW THERE'RE SO MANY FREAKING TEZUFUJI DOUJINS OUT THERE AND NO DECENT TEZURYOS. WHERE'S THE JUSTICE??

I shall go work on hyd fic do math/study for ss test now

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burned the sheets at 16:28

Sunday, March 23, 2008



Oh gawd. No, shit. Seriously?

Inoue Mao buried her face in Matsujun's chest.

This is ridiculously, uhm, ridiculous? But my HYD fangirl's going MOEEE like in OHSHC :D
T/T FTW. Hah, so there, it'll never be R/T :P Neh.

Though Oguri Shun is Hot. (yes, with a capital H)

Shite. I want to expand on the Loveless!TezuRyo fic. But it's not working. Figures.

BUT. Kish. asdfghjkl;

BECAUSE. The third time Ryoma steals the shirt, he's got Tezuka pressed against the far wall of the locker room. Tezuka kisses like he plays, fast and strong and heady. Klepto!Ryoma. Desperately urgent!Tezuka. Seme!Ryoma. Uke!Tezuka. I think that's all I need to say :DD

I really should start looking for inspiration for SP fic. But there aren't many that aren't either OOC or AU. I absolutely cannot write AU.

Nevermind; I shall go cheer myself up now by reading D/Hr :D

*Oh. GOSH. I almost typed in "Domyoji Tsukushi" into the tag box. How's that for gut feel, huh?

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burned the sheets at 16:15

Friday, March 21, 2008



KAZUYA KAMESHINA?! ROFL. Lou is hilarious xD To add the icing to the cake, it was Aiba's picture in my diary that she was pointing at.

I quote: "I know who! Kame-something right? *insert horrified looks from me and jol* I know! Kazuya.... Kazuya Kameshina!" KAMENASHI KAZUYA, WOMAN xD

.... Sad life that I lead, though. Such things are the highlight of a boring and utterly stressed day x_x
And apparently, Lou's not the only one to make such mistakes. Yoceeda confessed that she once called Kanata Hongo wrongly: Katana Hongo. HAHAHHAHAHHAHAH.

Gawd, I'm easily amused.

And 50episodes drabbles are so not getting along >.< This Saturday, Kame will be 22 years and 1 month old, as jol so nicely penned in (my) sparkling blue pen in my diary. (with a smiley face that went all awry)

Am attempting to write TezuRyo war!fic. Perhaps inspired by yesterday's WWII video? I don't know. Have wrapped up the Loveless-esque TezuRyo drabble :D (though it was just basically transferring from paper to computer; I finished it ages ago :O )

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burned the sheets at 13:23

Monday, March 17, 2008



Well. Signed up for 50episodes: Hyotei Regulars. Figured it'd be easier to write with more pairings, rather than just TezuRyo. #38. Rain is already pre-done; one down, forty-nine to go.

Shall draft out Silver, AtoJi, more Dirty. I want to write Piyo too! But I don't want Silver Trio -.- And Vanessa still owes me my Tango, damnit.

Okay. Off to torture myself doing overdue history holiday homework ;_; Lit'll come next, then chemistry, then physics. Looks like another sleepless night is due :3

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burned the sheets at 17:50

Sunday, March 16, 2008



Should I try for 50-episodes: TezuRyo?
I'm not sure if I can write 50 drabbles for the same pairing, though D:

And lit sucks.

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burned the sheets at 21:14

Tuesday, March 4, 2008



TODAY.

Was a gooooood day :D

  1. Managed to (somewhat) finish elit test.
  2. Sense of accomplishment over fic set in wayy late. But still. WROTE AN OSHIGAKU FIC. Yesterday.
  3. Wasn't screwed up like the AtoRyo fic
  4. And comments made my day :D Fic's on lj. And ff.net
  5. Sense of satisfaction that TezuRyo fic is finally making some headway.
  6. Warlord show was funny :) (Apparently only to me?)
  7. Found PoT OVA 18. Haven't watched it yet. But will, soon. Already loaded it :D
  8. Thinking about 100 years made me smile ♥ I cried though, when I read it D:
  9. Finished reading Fruits Basket on Sunday. Oh KYO
I realised a couple of things aren't exactly today -- but they are mere technicalities, worries too plebian to bother ore-sama. Sounds like something Atobe would say, ahn?

But nevermind. I am still high that I have finally written a decent fic (though it's only 380 words, but still) But HYD fic's at a miserable standstill :( I've had people reviewing to ask when I'm going to update; they're waiting. I have absolutely no idea how to tell them I want to take a hiatus. Especially when I just posted an OshiGaku fic on ff.net mere minutes ago. In Louisa-speak: KNS. I have no idea too how to tie the loose ends of the AtoRyo fic. It's seriously like shit. I would've taken it down ages ago if not for the fact that people already reviewed saying they were waiting.

GAH. I've managed to make myself frustrated :O Nevermind. I shall finish TezuRyo first. Somehow, my war!fic (inspired by Warlords) has managed to turn itself into martial arts training fic. WHY DO MY FICS NEVER GO ACCORDING TO PLAN?

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burned the sheets at 19:03

Thursday, February 28, 2008


aiba, gay?!


FUJI'S BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW :D

Dawn almost gave me a heart attack today, literally.


SHE TOLD ME AIBA WAS GAY.

I swear, my heart missed a couple of beats. My voice kinda choked up, and somehow, I felt like tearing. Gayness is all good and fine in animeverse, but AIBA? GAY?!

Then I found out she was just talking about a show in which Aiba acted as a gay guy. I think I died from sheer relief. I want to watch that show.

Small fonts suddenly make me think of snowwhite!Shinji. Heh. Shirayuki hime and his poisonous apple. And mirrorgenie!Kachiro xD

Dawn is harbouring the hope that Aiba will marry her.

Rachel the Raisin xD

His head rears back violently, harsh bellow ringing hoarse with agony. His eyes clench shut in a desperate, yet futile, effort to force the pain out.

She watches, eyes wide with horror and fear, breath catching painfully in her throat. Her heart throbs painfully, in tandem with each time he convulses. His body jerks erratically, pain wrenching the most anguished of sounds from between chapped lips. Her pulse skips an excruciating beat as her disbelieving mind tries and fails to comprehend the vision her eyes have seen – No, it cannot be – and yet, she knows, it must be true.

He has crumpled to the floor, an unmoving, utterly silent mass of cloth and flesh.

Her feet feel leaden as she forces them to drag slowly, one after the other, across the dusty marble. It feels like an eternity.

She kneels by his side, knees barely registering the winter bite of cold marble. Her fingers brush past rich brocade before settling on the still-warm face. Even as her fingertips gently graze his eyelids, some part of her is still reeling in skepticism and doubt. He cannot be dead. Her eyes, although burning almost furiously with unshed tears, refuse to open the floodgates. That is, until she sees it. The jar is broken, shards twinkling dispassionately in the dimness. And… there.

There, lying in the fold of his heavy robes, is a single rose petal.

A single tear rolls down her cheek and lands on the velvet petal, crystal-like in the brilliant light of the dawning day.

My random, random, take on what would have happened in Beauty and the Beast if it were to be a sad-ending fairytale :O A fic of sorts, I guess?

*I tried to do ss graded assignment. Upon opening my textbook, I see a post-it pasted firmly on page 21, smack-dab in the middle of the timeline of the Iraq-Kuwait conflict. The opening line? "Tezuka raises an arm" My Loveless fic! Which is incomplete -.-

I want Ritsu fanart :3

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burned the sheets at 18:19

Monday, February 18, 2008


because i was too excited at the prospect of fic


OH MY.

I. AM. EXCITED.

VANESSA HAS AGREED TO WRITE SILVER PAIR AND TANGO PAIR FOR ME xD Although technically she made no promises (she said try) but where writing and V.Hew are concerned, the fics are as good as done <3

Would she do me AtoJi too, I wonder...

Pity, she doesn't like Pillar Pair. *WAIL* HOW ANYONE CAN NOT LIKE TEZURYO IS BEYOND ME D:

Suckers, the whole lot of youu. TezuFuji SUCKS. GAH. BUT. *KEYSMASH* TANGO PAIR ♥

I really felt like murdering Karina today - She saw my picture of Shishido and went: "I know who! That guy from Fudomine, right?" BAH. HYOTEI, KARINA. HYOTEI.

AND WHY CAN'T I ACCESS KISH'S NQR FICS?! Chiya's works just fine, dammit.

AND WHY WHY WHY ARE THERE SO FEW PICTURES OF RITSU?!?!

Okay, that last one there was random, but valid.

And have I mentioned how I absolutely ship Kaori's song-inspired layouts? And for now, I am absolutely in awe of her Photoshop prowess :D (Yes, you are supposed to think Atobe)


I mean, lookit this. The aura. This is why, May folks, Echizen was made to win. Definitely not to lose to Yukimura. If he ought to lose to anyone (Nanjiroh does NOT count - too much of a pervert to), it should be Tezuka, not prettier-than-a-girl Yukimura.

Though I do agree with May that Echizen's just a kiddy, but that's besides the point.

And that somehow leads me to recall something ABSOLUTELY DEGRADING Dawn said about TezuRyo: "One so short, one so tall." OH, THE BLASPHEMY. I shall get ready Dawn!Voodoo Doll.

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burned the sheets at 22:57

Thursday, February 14, 2008



Yes, I think I shall attempt a Loveless-esque TezuRyo <3 I really, really like the sound of that xD

Fighter!Tezuka and Sacrifice!Ryoma *_* shiny.

Unless someone wants to be nice and write me one? Refer to Kaori's one as a model fic; but I want mine longer, much longer :D

TezuRyo! I swear, I love Kish. Like, ajg;alkgha;lsg Her Halloween!fic TRUTH IN ART <3

They all agree, though, if not aloud, that Fuji and Inui are a bit too involved in their roles. "A match tomorrow, Echizen," says Inui, staring deep into Fuji's eyes.

Fuji looks up at him with something resembling a smile. "Fine, buchou."

"Stop that, stupid mamushi!" Momo shouts suddenly, and tackles Kaidoh into some of the decorations. Kaidoh punches him, and Momo punches back, and Tezuka (the real one) says sharply, "Momoshiro, Kaidoh! Enough!"

And by the time the fight is broken up, Fuji and Inui are standing by the far wall. Fuji's hands are linked at the back of Inui's neck, stroking the hair at the back of the wig, and Inui's arms hold Fuji securely against him, Fuji's cap between two of his fingers, hanging down beside them. Fuji has to stand on tiptoes to kiss Inui, which makes the picture oddly accurate in terms of proportion.

Kaidoh chokes and forgets about glaring at Momo. For several moments, in fact, everybody forgets about everything. Strangely, Tezuka and Echizen aren't the ones to protest this apparent defamation of character.

"That… that isn't-" says Oishi, and can't go on. Eiji drapes himself over Oishi's shoulders, watching, more fascinated than horrified.

"Echizen wouldn't… with Tezuka-buchou!" Horio shrieks loudly, and feigns a faint. Katsuo and Kachiro grab him by the shoulders to hold him up.

Fuji breaks off the playacting for a moment to turn and inform him, "No, it's in-character. We studied for our roles, didn't we, Inui?"

"Of course," says Inui, and somehow manages to make his Tezuka-glasses gleam.

"Hey, hey," says Momo. "Where is Echizen?" He looks around, standing on tiptoes in order to see past everyone and around the decorations.

"And Tezuka?" Fuji adds pointedly, and Eiji laughs against Oishi's shoulder.

They don't understand his point until Horio chokes back a little gargle and points to Rafael Nadal and Roger Federer, who are kissing even more deeply in the corner behind the refreshments table. Despite an entire roomful of people gaping (or in Fuji's and Inui's cases, smiling indulgently and taking notes) at them, Nadal and Federer don't seem to notice anyone but each other.

This doesn't make much sense, and I disagree with Federer!Tezuka. But I still maintain my stand that, KISH YOU ARE A GENIUS. And I doubt Nadal is shorter than Federer, but my suspicions are secondary to Kish's brillance.

Girl!Kite :O I forgot all about her(him?) till May replied to how (s)he looked so domestic.

May Ng is my PoT soulmate. She sings Tezuka all the time. Need I say more? And I sing Flower during Ms Rockey's lessons, btw. Thalia can testify xD (Though she doesn't know what I'm singing, but she knows I sing)

And I know I've said this earlier, but no harm in saying it twice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CHOUTAROU ♥ May your Shishido-san celebrate with you to your heart's content

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burned the sheets at 19:10



A Loveless-esque TezuRyo sound good?

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burned the sheets at 00:24

JOY